F and i had a talk. the first 15 minutes of the conversation seems forever. he was actually raising his voice at me for the first time. this got me rather upset. he make it clear that i'm partially responsible for what has happened. i know i shouldnt have made that small white lie. i've hurt him instead. he take that really hard. i guess that's the reason why he hurt me back. he asked where i was coming from and his years of friendship with S is stronger than what i've thought and my existence wouldnt change a single thing but in the first place, i never even thought of changing anything, including his friendship. he apologised a couple of times in the conversation for saying things which he knew would hurt me. i could hear that he's remorseful about what he did. perhaps its a huge miscommunication which we agreed. whatever it is, he said that they've both move on be it w/o me- that's what man's all about. oh wellsss.. we're the beautiful passer-bys in each other's life. (:

roar* he cant picked me up tonight. sadly, i have to cab home after facial. i always enjoy facial sessions. the atmosphere makes me fell asleep gradually and the next minute, an hour or so has passed. and oh... to mention that i saw the pink version of my phone. not that i fancy pink but there's actually a black one. besides i just had it not too long so prolly leave that at the later part. i have been good this year, Santa so grant my wishlists A_*

enjoy your weekend then (:
till... the next time~